DISCLAIMER: There is a purpose to sharing this personal experience of mine and if you read until the end, you’ll understand.
You know how something catches your attention, and in that moment it really bothers you, but you choose not to allow it to dwell in your mind. Then it occurs repeatedly and becomes more difficult to shrug off. Maybe I’m the only one, but I choose to be honest with myself:
It doesn’t just bother me, it hurts.
Here’s the deal: I have a friend that I truly love wholeheartedly. We have been physically distanced due to my relocation after graduating, emotionally distanced due to my hiatus in interactions with anyone/thing that wasn’t directly connected to developing my relationship with God. I have made advances to reconnect and catch up with her as I have with others, but it has gone absolutely nowhere. I have reached out, and the times she has responded has been to tell me that she’ll get back to me. Which I totally understand. I mean living the college life is time consuming and hectic. However, if someone reached out to you, you don’t respond, and you post twice on Instagram, then maybe the person you’re neglecting isn’t that important.
I realized that the friendship I cherish so dearly, isn’t as cherished on the other end.
I finally decided to get it out and talk to God. As I opened up to him about how I was feeling in that moment, I had an epiphany. The Holy Spirit checked me rather than comforted me, and I am so grateful. As I talked to God, my plea for comfort and clarity changed to forgiveness. I couldn’t believe that this was the way I made Him feel all the time. He wants to hear from His child and have her listen to Him. He desires a connection, my affection and confessions. He longs to commune with me, but I tend to neglect Him.
I see how it is…
It isn’t just about reading His Word, it’s about totally engulfing yourself in His Presence. Losing yourself in worship.
Just in awe of who He is.
Being reminiscent of all He’s done.
Laying your burdens down.
Receiving His gifts of grace and peace.
I MEAN it’s so much more than making sure you’ve completed the checklist that consists of Bible study and church service. It’s about really being connected to Him; experiencing His Glory in everything you do. Of course Bible study and church service is vital, but do you truly fellowship with His people? Do you truly enjoy nature, His creation? Do you truly rejoice in what He has given you?
Our lives are so much more than Bible study and church. It’s the ultimate test of trusting the One who intricately designed you and this world. See the beauty in everything around you regardless of the circumstances. There is so much to be grateful for and to enjoy.
This post just went to a totally different dimension than I expected! It’s amazing though. I’m challenging myself and I hope that you challenge yourself.